the woes of work

so i am sitting here at work listening to teenage boys giggle like little girls. seriously. i have no idea what they are watching, but it apparently is hilarious.

i have decided that i like working with guys better than girls. atleast in the context of subbing for high schoolers. i have an easier time getting a lot of the guys to do their work than i do girls sometimes. i think it is a combination of a couple things, but it works for me. we have an auto tech department here and it is mostly guys. i love subbing for them. we have fun and laugh and they guys do what i ask them. most of the time. : ) girls just seem more content to talk to each other than worry about what i think about them or what i ask them to do. not all girls, but a lot of them. there is also a little bit of safe flirting that goes on with the guys. nothing sick or anything but still a little flirting.

one of the major bummers about subbing though is having to come up with things to do while watching them work. there aren't a whole lot things that you can do as a sub. i have taken to writing in my journal and writing my grandmother letters. i also stare into space alot. jk.

another problem is working two jobs when one of them requires early mornings and the other is late nights. needless to say i haven't had much sleep this week.

at the other job there is a countless supply of stupid questions and blank looks. i know you are probably confused that i am not talking about the subbing, but i am not. shocked huh. it is when people come in asking where they can get textbooks and you say the college bookstore, and they just look at you like you are insane. i know seriously, where do you get textbooks? uh, the college bookstore that is kind of their job. another favorite is when asking for a shakespeare play and using two titles to do it. "do you have hamlet by macbeth?" not even kidding they do ask that.

it is a wonder why i keep taking jobs that require me to talk to people. people are dumb. they say and do really dumb things alot. its amazing i haven't been fired for being rude and sarcastic to everyone that asks stupid questions.

new poem

so i have decided to share this with all of you, enjoy, and if you don't, don't tell me. :)

Frozen Prison

I sit, frozen in the moment
as ice forms around me,
holding my breathe in.
The thaw of spring is
in the nonexistent future-
my future.

All thoughts, all feelings,
encased in ice.
All, except those
I needed stunted the most-
you.

Visions of you,
visions of us,
torment me inside my prison.
My jailor is cold and unforgiving.

My frigid heart still beats for you,
slow, steady, and jaggedly.
The beating tears me apart.
You should not have power here
yet it beats for you, not for me-
for you.

so there it is. i hope you like it

i'm thinking of posting my latest poem, but i'm not sure if i really want too. i think it is one of my best, but if no one else thinks so what is that saying about my opinion? i will think on it and decide soon. stay on the edge of your seats!

two things

so i have noticed two things, one, i suck at blogging, and two i have nothing really important to say. yeah i can babble with the best of them, but who wants to read that? i know i don't. so i will just do some updates.

mom and dad are building a new house, and while it is getting done we have had to live in an apartment. soooo much fun. seriously. christmas in a three bedroom apartment with 12 people and two dogs. tell me you aren't jealous. so the house is going to be done on the 20th of this month. i am so excited! i am so done with apartment living. you might be wondering why i am still living with my parents, and so am i. just kidding. i know why, i just don't want to tell you. :)

i am still working two jobs and it is not so bad. sometimes i wish that i could work more so that i could afford to go to school so that i could then work more. but i would be doing something i actually wanted to do. crazy idea i know.

my baby has learned the comforts of sleeping on my bed with me. problems come two-fold. one, he has ripped the sheets due to his need to scratch before he lays down. two, he can now stand over me to wake me up. he did that this morning. nice. i of course am still able to ignore him. : )

strange man watching me leave

so i thought i would take a few minutes and write something. i am staying at my sisters apartment while she is out of town, and i noticed a weird man watching me this morning. i was getting ready to leave for work this morning and he watched me get in my car and and then started walking away. when i past him on my way out he was watching me. very weird. i am hoping it is just a parking thing, like i took his spot or something. creepy.

other than that not much going on. in the last two and a half weeks or so i have only slept in my bed three nights. before staying at my sisters place i was house sitting for a week. that house was creepy. huge and dark and empty. i made it though. i miss my dog. i am going out the house today and then sleeping over. i am a little nervous about creepy guy though doing something while i am gone. not enough to keep me here though.

i have been reading a lot lately. it goes in stages. sometimes i read more than others. lots of good books.!

summer plans

summer plans....i don't have any.

i have been trying to find a job for the summer, i really have, i have applied to three families for a nanny position and to the ymca. nothing so far. i really hate not knowing what i am going to be doing for long periods of time. i want to figure something out.

my sister and her family will be here in a couple weeks which means that things are going to be getting interesting around here. luckily i have other places that i can go. it is going to be cramped here, and the tv schedule will have to be set. i have summer shows that will not be messed with.

; ) it is going to take some getting used to to have three kids around. i have a feeling people will try to regulate my dog and that will not be going over too well. we shall see though.

right now i am waiting on a friend to get down with work so that we can go see hottie jake g in prince of persia. she had to work this morning and the dogs are going slow. hopefully she will get out soon. i have been waiting for so long to see this movie. the critics have not been too kind to it, but all i care about is the hotness factor! i know shallow, but oh so do not care!!! this summer will be pretty full as far as movies. i have the ateam, eclipse, beastly, the killers, ondine, harry potter sometime, so busy busy, and full of hotties!!

i lead a pretty boring life, but i have been waiting for a book to come in. it was supposed to be in on the 25th and it is not here yet. annoying. there are a few books that i am waiting for this summer. i know i get so excited though about what is coming out. i already have gotten and finished a few that i had been waiting on, they came out in april. now i wait for the next crop.

hmmm

so i still haven't had any luck with getting a job this week, i have one for later in may, but not this week. i have to remember to go to bed early tonight because fridays are usually really busy. i stayed up way too late last night..i was reading of course.!

i went to barnes and noble last night just cause and i ended up helping one of my co-workers with the info desk line. i am a sucker. i just hate seeing people waiting because when they wait they get nasty. so i told him he needed to bow down to me. he laughed....i was serious : )

i have worked out like three times this week already! i am up to 30 mins. each time. it doesn't sound like a lot, but it is for me. i think i will try for 40 mins next. i have been better about staying within my points this week too, so that is fabulous. i would like to lose 40 pounds, that is the long term goal, the short term is just 5 pounds so i know this works. we shall see!

it is the parentals anniversary today. 33 years, that is crazy, so are they. i am happy to say they love each other and their crazy kids. i know they will be married for another 33 years, no one else would have them : ) love them!